i read my cares...not-quite-away? ...pushd thru 'poland' by michener, hop skip & jumped around lawrence durrell's first (i believe) novel- 'th dark labyrinth',.. keep returning to th same chapters in douglas coupland's 'generation x', lately, mostly working on finishing hesse's 'steppenwolf', my first rereading since i was sixteen or so- i think... also started vaneigem's situationist rant- 'a cavalier history of surrealism'...& my cousin marilse reminded me i had 'barcelona' by robert hughes lying around, so i started browsing thru it again- th chapter on gaudi, among others...need more? when i'm feeling reeeeally depressed i pick up henry miller's 'big sur & th oranges of hieronymous bosch'...

i can't stand it. over a month & a half after th beach house got broken into, dr.dad & my brothers haven't gotten it together to look for th valcor window papers in case they need to call th company's 'lifetime warranty' bluff- so i feel like i'm playing watchdog as i drench myself in 'off' insect repellent before crawling into bed- but th bug juice wears out in a few hours & mosquito buzzes & bites wake me between two & three in th morning whenever th prevailing high pressure fails & th breeze dies down- often enough, these nights...

it's a busy tuesday @ th stroke of midnight- it's th night there's three cruise ships in town & soapy's internet station stays open til two in th morning when passengers & crew gather back onboard & th big liners prepare to lift anchor...

san valentin was bad & lonely. inspired me to think up an alias: val steppenwolf...or valen wolf? i mean, my ummm- 'nombre de pila'? -given name? christian name? feels like a sad sick joke in my current self-pitying mood- david jose: th cherisehd or beloved (according to 'god's heart') -who labors w/ his hands- daoud youssef...& i've ended up being such a solitary, unloved, amateur capitalist...oh well. isn't it ironic...

so, i'm looking @ travelling th month of march: costa rica, guatemala & a visit to carlos oscar in miami for my birthday towards th end of march... tony's mac hasn't even had an apple machine for me to rent all this time, so i haven't had a chance to work on forwarding my earlier writings out of their compuserve format zipdisk backup to either david sower or maybe to th new online storage business i saw advertised somewhere... (to be continued- a suivre- continuara...) abrazzous, dabizzet.j=(8{>